New year. New life

I usually visit this blog whenever I'm feeling emo. And as I see, me being depressed about something became seldom or maybe I'm just too busy to even bother to rant about my frustrations and even worse make it sound interesting. I'm too preoccupied with my "big bad world" life or maybe I'm getting old about this. Whatever the reason is, I'd like to start writing again and i hope not sporadically.. 

Random thoughts from 2013

Its weird that i just realize i have lost myself. The one who's deep and full of dancing words. Of words that can be chained to revive a feeling to send chills in a sleeping heart. I have lost my childhood dreams and passion. Its like i've finally left neverland indeed. Im off to set my own walkway with pavements and paint rather with flowers and glitters and soft fluffy clouds. I'm off to take the template memo and pattern my life with it. 

I didn't foresee that this decision that i took could be very depressing. I knew from the start I wouldn't like it. But I didn't saw that i wouldn't last it. In different perspectives what I've done could be seen as fulfilling and at the same time frustrating . I've been spending my hard earned money to something more noble and practical rather than to some self fulfilling expenses.  But still i feel lost. And not only does my pockets are literally empty I myself is empty.