awwwwe.... 9 years....

Don't patronize them because they have reached nine years together. Yes, they're my friends, and I'm happy for them. But I hope they are both happy with each other. I mean why would you stay with someone when you think you don't share the same interests anymore. That you think you're better off marrying someone else for casualty,just because you share the same interests and your travel buddies just to ease the hassle of traveling law dilemmas.
Why would you blush over someone and fantasize someone when you should be sharing intimate moments or any happy moments with your nine year long partner.

Is it because you two has some financial issues, that you bought things together and share the same burden of paying those bills?
Is it because of people trying to tell you how wonderful that you have reached nine years and it would be a waste to give it up?
That you're afraid to start with someone again? Then, you're just cheating on yourself .

Life is about taking risks, no matter if you start with square one again, at least you're happier with square one part two.

Anyways these are just my points of view. Every brain works differently. Yours works that way, his works that, hers like that and mine, this way.

Whatever may happen, whatever you want to do, as long as that makes you happy and experience life, I'm fine with it. The friendship bond will never break.

mutually happy

Is it bad to ask the same level of appreciation with what you can give?
NO, I don't want to be higher nor to get a higher one rather I would love it if it would be MUTUAL.
I mean unconditional love is overrated. I'm not mother Mary or some heavenly angels or saints for God's sake to fantasize about unconditional love.
I want equality, fairness.
I want to love and be loved.
Feel totally loved and be appreciated. At the same time I can give that same love and appreciation that I know I can give and will give selflessly. (dot dot dot) But would that be unconditional love then?
Nevertheless, all I want is to share the mutual understanding of LOVE, LIFE & HAPPINESS. That's all that matters.

The "I want to spend the rest of my life with you" and " I would also love to" drama..
The knowing the other person like the back of your hand kind of thing.
The reading of each others thoughts kind of connection.
Need to elaborate? I know you get it.
I know it takes time and I know we're getting there soon i hope.

the lost booster

There was this person who appreciated everything I did.
I am that kind of person who doesn't believe in herself much. Well, that person believed in me so much that she boosted an over powerful confidence in me that made me think I can do anything. Good for me i did almost everything with full confidence.. Bad for her she gave me too much confidence, i wanted to do it on my own. Well, a baby bird should leave her momma's nest sooner or later and try to fly on her own.
The downside for me, when i already got what I wanted, is that I'm missing the confidence booster, not the person itself but the thought that there is someone boosting you all this confidence, that I've been feeding upon. BUT! I must regain everything back and learn to do it on my own and what I have at hand. Which sometimes is not helping too much.

DISCLAIMER: I do not want the person back.. hehehehe... and im not bitter either... hehe

and I begin...

I am not one of those bloggers who carry with them fancy words and fancy cameras to match their uber fantastic stories. I don't travel the world, I don't do extreme things to discover new stuff. Basically, I'm just a normal.. or may be not so normal, average girl, with an average family and friends, more or less.
So how would anyone would want to try to read my story?...
Well, I believe every fantastic stories begins with a dreary start.
Hope mine's the same...

I am a bud in the crowded bed of roses, watching everyone bloom. I'm one of those, who catches every glimpse of the story but most of the times would want to shut her mouth up and just keep my thoughts to myself or with a piece of paper at least.

And this blogs will consist of mostly my points of view in life, love, or whatever it is under the sun, and a few parts of my not so uber fantastic life.