to others it was the life.
it was the peak of their adolescent years.
the stage of their life where they can't help but reminisce over and over.
high school.
i can't remember my high school.
i had friends. i had life. but i didn't live it to the fullest i would have to agree to that.
when i see my batch mates interacting on facebook, i would still feel left out.
maybe, i wasn't aware but maybe i was one of the loosers, one of the wallflowers, im one of the nice people.
and nice people are always put in the line last. maybe in highschool but not in real life. or to think again, maybe not..
i never wanted to be attached to anyone else back in high school, i had friends but not so close.
i didn't want expectations, i didn't want to make extra effort to make myself fit in, like the usual requirement to pass high school life.
half of me is glad that i decided to do that, but still half of me wished i could have done more than that.
but sometimes i still tend to remain as one. and maybe always will. tend to just sit around and just watch other people live their lives and wish i too were doing the same. Even if i tried so much to make myself to be outgoing. i tend to just curl up in the corner and just watch, with mouth closed, life move.
maybe its good, maybe its not. but bottom line is i don't want to be a wallflower anymore, neither be it from time to time. i want to live my life with no regrets and no what if's.
